Sad Rhapsody ...

The night is still ...
on a blinking cursor I stared ...

memories came flooding in ... the one's I craved to write
but my tears rocked me as i tried to embossed them word by word ....

sorting them out ... brings pain ... shattered pieces of a broken heart ....
of wanton , passionate desire .... the one's i craved until now ....

the heart aches rush a quick while the flicker of the light fades slowly ...
of the melted wax .... once stands with all it's glory ....

for a moment I felt your warm skin brushed mine ....
for a moment I wished I could turn back time ....

once again you have touched this bereaved heart
and once again you obviously torn it out to pieces ....

I breathed .... gasped for precious air .... just to continue this insanity ...
of loving someone who doesn't even care to love me...

I craved for you as I do for this life of mine ...
but to live deeply in this pathetic madness makes me realize ....
that death would be such a sweet bliss.....

中心は痛む

Heartache ...

when is love become forbidden ?
when is love become a sin ?
do we always dwell with morality ?
when do we stop pretending ?
when do we let our feelings free ?
When do we stop denying ?

ooh tell me please ...
when do we stop from hurting ?
when do we stop from loving ?
would it mean to stop breathing too ?

do we have the right to say that life wasn't fair ?
what do we know about being fair when we have been unfair at times ?
when do we keep our selves from doing wrong ?
when every moment spent together felts so right ?

tell me why does your hand fit so right as you hold it close to your heart while singing your songs ...
tell me why does our heart beats so fast each time you held me close ...


as time goes by i though that i will stop loving you eventually ...
i thought that this feeling will just subside ...
but that was proven to be wrong for i am in fact still in love with you ...

i cannot tell myself to stop loving you...
to just shut my heart from those forbidden feelings...

and once again as i played our favorite song the heart aches felt so fresh
like it was just half the moment when i let go of you ...

Please don't ask me
what am i thinking
It's about you
And please don't ask me
I never can see you
What can i do
My first impulse is to run to your side
My heart's not free,
and so i must hide
Please don't ask me
What I'm gonna say to you
I toss and turn
Can't sleep at night
It's worrying me, I go to bed
Turn out the light
But your face i see
It only hurts
The more i pretend
That we could ever
Be more than friends
Please don't ask me
Why I'm so in love with you



You could easily make me happy
That I know
But I try my best to
never tell you so
I will sing to you my love songs
And pretend but I'll keep my
secrets right down
To the end
Please don't ask me why
I'm not talking
I just can't explain
And please don't ask me
Why I go walking out in the rain
I could not live the
lie it would take
To have you near would be a mistake
Please don't ask me
Why I'm still in love with you
No please don't ask me

Each time you sang that song it makes me want to comfort you and tell you that
" every thing's gonna be alright love .... "

and once again you will hold me close .... and sing your song once more ....

The Crazy Dream ...

It felt weird ....
but i woke up laughing.... i barely had sleep today ... 3 hours is
really not enough ....

I had this surreal dream ...
erotic ... but should I laugh about it ?
hell yeah!

why not ?

this was it ...

the dream was ...

about ...

SEX

the first scene was i was enjoying the same coke float again ( the
one I was addicted for two days already )
was sitting on the black counter top ... the tile felt so cold and yes it
felt so real .



so... I sipped and then swirling the cream on that sizzling cola .
and then a man came in from the kitchen door ... he was oozing
with appeal though I don't know him ... but his face seems familiar to me ... he walked in with graceful strides .... long legs ... a hunk ! on his open shirt ...



his eyes we're sparkling with emotions .... staring straight into mine.... I could almost see his soul in it .... and the passion burning .

I met his gaze .... and I was surprised when he covered my mouth with his .. it was differently the kiss of the century .

The kiss was somewhat wet but warm ...
with his tongue toying mine into a deep swirl...
yumm , yumm ....

my eyes we're closed .... it was like I was feeling every inch of his desire to kiss me .... and by instinct I parted my legs to welcome him more and feel his hard chest ....

that is when I realized that I was wearing a skirt ...
( I forgot the color , sorry ) but I had no undies then . LOL .

Still I was enjoying his kiss ... the urge become more vibrant ... the kiss deepened .... i could almost swallow his soul ...
and felt his hands cupping my right breast ... touching it under my blouse ...
i am totally in heat ... and he was in control ... and so he let put the animal in him .....

it happened so fast yet so detailed ....
he parted my legs wider and he entered in ....

It was hot ... hard .... healthy and exciting ....
I was very wet ... but he kept on plunging ... deep.. deeper ....
I am bursting with climax each time he thrust more ... and faster ....

I felt that he was about to come ...
I heard him whisper my name .... it was satisfying ....

so I slowly opened my eyes .... and for the life of me it was not the man who walked in that door ... it was my team mate ( LOL ) names are confidential though ( hehehehe !!! ) .

How the hell did that happened ?
Damn !

But it was good ... and I woke up laughing ... and until now I felt like bursting with laughter especially when I saw my team mate .



" Could we but mould our dreams at will,
And keep them free from harm or ill,
How pleasant it would be,
To deem our waking hours but dreams,
And that, our life which now but seems
A baseless fantasy. "

-- Lady M. W. Montague

silhouette ...

sorting out my feelings.....
though i smile and let out some giggles a feeling of grief and sadness comes and rolls on the center of my being ....
from time to time you hunt me... for even in my dreams you invaded my heart ...


there you are again ... the man .. just a silhouette that i could never see the face ....
standing behind that glass window in a colonial house where the curtains are drawn and the warm light behind you casting a shadow on your face where only a hint of teardrop sparkles by the moonlit sky ....

i wish to see that face behind the silhouette .... to hear the voice .. to touch and feel ....
I wish to heal your pain ... to heal mine ....

i stopped believing in you for such a long time ago ... facing the reality was what i had to do then ....
i gave up on you ...

and there you are .... you look so real .... it even felt so real ...

i long to touch those silken hair .... to feel it's strands in my fingers ...

you haunt me for years now ....

but never telling me your name ... never ....

데니스 오

Name: 데니스 오 / Dennis Oh
Real name: Dennis Joseph O’Neil
Profession: Model and actor
Birthdate: 1981-Aug-29
Birthplace: United States of America
Height: 188cm
Weight: 83kg
Star sign: Virgo
Blood type: A
Family: Mother (Korean), father (American) and an older brother
Education: Savannah College of Art and Design
Hobbies: Drawing, traveling and photography

TV Series

East of Eden (MBC, 2008)
Witch Amusement (SBS, 2007)
Sweet Spy (MBC, 2005)

Awards
Best Dress, 22nd Korean Model (2005)


More of Dennis