The nearness of you ...

I wandered as a cloud
And then I saw
This pasted tapestry
Of artist's dream of unspoiled beauty

Bathe into the dark pool of your eyes
Swam into the river of your warm smile

You came closer
Closer ...
Too close ...
I inhaled your sweet breath
I hear your hearts thud ...

You reached for me ,
Held me tight , close to your heart ...

Hush now ...
Not a word , not even a sigh

How I wish this moment will freeze
Never liked " Goodbyes " ...

So on my wall , above my bed .
I stare at you
For an hour or so ...

And as I fell deep in my sleep
You came to life ...

I bathe in the dark pool of your eyes
I swam in the warmth of your smile
I felt the comfort of your embrace
I tasted the sweetness of your breath .

The nearness of you ....

I came to life .

kaleidoscope

I live in this world
Where ...
I am happy , I am sad

Helpless....

Upon your hands gentle rumble
I laughed , I cried ...
You make me strong
Still I am weak
A prisoner of your heart's desire ...

My soul cascades with just a shake of your hand .
I am merely a puppet .

I tumbled upon pillars of colors
As the beads crushed on my limp body ...

I struggled on different cold shapes and snow flakes
As I am blinded by the mirrors reflection ...

Darkness fell ....
A tunnel into oblivion ....

And then with a shake ,
I am awake
Inside your kaleidoscope ...

sweet summer death ...

so the rain fell on the ground ...
hard rain ... thunder ... lightning ...

mud will swallow you once you stepped in ...
and there is nothing to hold on to....
no one to hold on to ...

slowly the dark slime will pull you deeper ...
deeper
deeper into the darkness...
where there is no air ...
you cannot breath ...
the mud suffocates you ...
toying with your lifeless body ...
squeezing your spirit out ...
putting end with your struggles ...

and you lay there ...
cold ...
you felt cold ...
lifeless ...

but ...

you are in pain ...
shouting in agony...
praying that the suffering will end ...
begging for the pain to stop.

so you wake up
and reality is just too much to bear ...
and you wish to fall asleep again ...


so the rain fell on the ground ...
hard rain ...

thunder ...

lightning ...

and you wish for a sweet summer death ...