sadness 101

December blues...

what do you do when you feel blue? 
what do you do when you feel sad?
what do you do when you feel down?
what do you feel?

make me better...
sing me a song...
catch me a star...
paint me a dream...
take me to the clouds...
take me to the rainbows...
                                  beyond this wall of emptiness...
                                  beyond this wall of sadness...


                                  make me better...

Mr. Blue

I...
never thought that we'd meet face to face
You...
with your crisp smile and charming face
I...
besotted by you
You...
kept on staring at me and smiling
I...
like the way you dress in that shade of a morning sky..
You..
smiled even sweeter
I...
want to be near to you
You...
just smiled on that idea
I...
want to touch and caress you
You...
just kept on staring and smiling
I...
dared to be close to you,
too close I can inhale your scent...
You...
dumb and just kept on staring at me with that weird smile.
I...
touched your hand and pressed it gently
You..
your eyes lit
and
you suddenly said "ang mahiwagang flashlight"

love you doraemon!!!

on: mindless thoughts and scribblings....

"sometimes we ask too much...
  that we sometimes forget what we already have...."

on longings....

the night hides me....
hides me from sorrow...
shields me from sadness....
and yet....
i long for you....

the night comes...
embraces me....though cold and uncaring...
the night is there to hold me....

shades of dark....colours my soul...
brings me solitude and peace...

and yet.... i long for you....



image by : A_sad_an_lonely_night_by_Maegondo

Shooting Star

This song is written by an old friend ...
He was the one who introduced me to Michael Franks , John Mayer
and Sting ...
well then wherever you are in this part of the planet may you live happily and in the peak of good health !
I miss you !!!



SHOOTING STAR
Music & Lyrics: Richard Lim

I gazed at the sky tonight
I'm waiting for a star in flight
I know there'll be another
Shooting star

City lights seem to cover you
But I know you'll shine in my view
Even though you'll be that far
Shooting star

I know tonight you'll make my dreams come true
And all the other hearts that's torn in two
We'll wish on wherever you are
Shooting Star

It's past midnight, I'm still waiting for you
I don't know, I Don't have a clue
I'd still wish on wherever you are
Shooting star

I gazed at the sky tonight
Hoping tomorrow there'll be a star in flight...

eternally.....

when all that's left are fragments of  forever.... 

love me....

eternally.....

A tiptoe on the vintage side.... featuring...

...on satin

Quarter to 10

You gazed at me

Your eyes said hello

Then…..

You came closer.

Closer….I can hardly breathe.

And you can’t resist…you reached out your hand…

You touched me.

Slowly… you caress my satin softness…

Languidly your fingers grazed with pleasure….

And you…

Untied the string….

You unzipped me….

And conquer my velvety soul….

Lingering on warm corners….

Feel me…. Feel more of me….

Want me….

I know you do….

And then you sigh.

It’s almost ten… buy me.  The store is about to close now.

draft tittle: A bags poetry.

Flipped

"An entire conversation, just me and a tree. And on the climb down I felt like crying.

Why didn't I have someone real to talk to?

Why didn't I have a best friend like everyone else seemed to?"

This is just one of my favorite of my quote from the book Flipped by Wendelin Van Draanen

Happy 30th Birthday To Me!!!

click  to enlarge image!!!!

A New Year

I miss blogging if only my work now allows me to update my blog site everyday I will do so...but WORK is keeping me... well one has to earn to live right? anyways... a few more hours and it will be a New Year and I will be spending time and New Year here in the office as usual~

This year has been tough...but I am proud to say that " I HAVE SURVIVED " and will continue doing so for the lust of life!!!

New Years resolution? hmmmn..... I have not think about it...and don't want to think about it. :)
New Year's Wish? LOVE+Good Health+Happiness !!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!!

the gift

you bring me beautiful sunrise and sunsets....

you bring color to this dull, lifeless soul....

you touched my heart in a special way....

you bring me rain and soaked me with your warmth....

you bring hope, joy and love.

you made me fly... I soar up above the sky...

and each day that brings us closer...

you bring me beautiful sunrise and sunsets....

Like Dandelion Dust (2009)

Longings ( 2 )

that image of you kept playing on my mind...

like a soft melody that my heart sings.....

and then you smile....

it dances like stars comes twilight

and then you sigh...

sweet ever gentle sigh...

is it for longing? 

and then the image danced again....

white smokes floating from your cigarette...

in front of my longing heart....

like a soft melody... 

and then you smile.

Sinekultura at CAFA Theatre

My friend Cierlito Tabay has been inviting me for free vieweing at SineKultura at CAFA in San Carlos Talamban campus which leaded by Misha Anissimov who is also the founder of Tioseco Bohinc Film Archive.

The free film viewing has started on June 2011 featuring both foreign and local films with different genres.

You may check Diem Judilla's sinebuano.com for updated info about SineKultura Screenings.

image source:panumduman.tumblr.com

And due to rain and heavy traffic I arrived late and missed the first film Doktora but luckily I was just on time for " Ang Gugma ni Olivia ( Olivia's Love) "  in Cebuano with English subtittle.

The film is mainly about obsession.
And I love how the short film was plotted  beyond ordinary and how the emotions were portrayed by the lead actors without those exagerating scripts and all... it was raw talent and portrayal... which captured the audience interest as well...

All in all it was a good film and I am hoping I could watch more of these films from home grown talent such as  Christian Linaban and many more....

And also would like to thank my friend Lito for inviting me for the screenings .

For movie viewing you may visit :
Tioseco-Bohinc Film Archive and Library
You may contact  and direct your inquiries to:
Mr.Cierlito Tabay
Email:  le2_budz@yahoo.com
Moble:  0912.839.0692
Address: 55 Daisy St. Phase 1 Camella Homes, Pajac, Lapu-Lapu, Philippines

The Ferry Ride....

I can't remember if when was the last time I rode the metro ferry  on my way home... it just seems very inaccessible for me and time consuming....

But today I did! It was brave enough for me to go to Colon Street and took  a jeepney ride to Pier 3 which has changed and improve a lot since my last visit.

And it is just the perfect day for a Metro Ferry ride, the sun is up and shining and the hum of the waves so soothing  as the cool wind plays through the tangles of my hair...

All in all I enjoyed the ride and all my childhood memories flooded through.. cotton candies and balloons after Sunday church with lola and lolo...  as the ferry sails home...

And took some photos for souvenirs ...  

Bestseller ( Korean Movie )

Genre: Mystery, Thriller
Category: Korean Movie
Film Date: April, 2010
Synopsis

Hee-soo has been a bestselling author for the past 20 years. But her reputation and fame are all butchered overnight when she is accused of plagiarizing a competition entry that she juried. She falls into despair for 2 years, but with the help of her long-time friend publisher, she dreams of a spectacular comeback. She drives to a remote pension deep in a small town with her daughter Yun-hee. At this quiet and uncanny pension, Yun-hee begins talking to an unidentified figure. Dying for a new source of inspiration, Hee-soo turns the stories that Yun-hee hears from this figure into her new book, which turns into a bestseller. But her regained fame doesn’t last long as she is again accused of plagiarizing a novel that was published 10 years ago. In order to prove her innocence, Hee-soo begins a mysterious journey to expose the truth.

                                                                Watch the movie here

Death ...

falling into your arms… gasping for breath… looking into your warm eyes… for the last time….

death has come to me… death as claimed my being…

as darkness fells into these horizons… the memories slowly comes back….

the way you say my name….

the way you held my hand….

the way fate has bring you to me…

when you said ….

” you look lovely when you’re happy…”

” you look sexy when you sing lonely songs”

” you look pretty when you’re drunk…”

” you bring sunshine when you smile… “

do you remember these words ?

do you remember when you held me close in the rain?

do you remember when you cried when i was in pain?

do you remember the first time we made love ?

now the pain slowly subsided…just like the beat of my heart….

i want to grasp more air.. more life… more of you….

i’d rather choose to die and let you go

for to die in your arms would be the sweetest death ….

and to see you in pain is like a thousand death…

Broken....

we kept pivoting on this suspended stray of love

thinking we’re heading on

but not seeing lot’s of devils 

that tremble down soaked-hearts of lovers

it was a dash we’re clued

but the heartaches rush a quick while our hearts weep ….