Blue Christmas

8:43 A.M.
Wednesday
December 26, 2007



Standing there... amidst busy street... busy people rushing around for last Christmas shopping....
Yes it is Christmas once again.

And once again here goes my blue Christmas...
It started some four years ago...
But still and still you're here inside my memory.
The pain is still fresh, the hurt still aches...

I know I would never forget this feeling I felt for you,
Not in this lifetime...
"'til my last breath."

Still my one wish is to be with you on Christmas day...
But it would never happen... I know....I just know...

And now I'm sitting here listening to Michael Franks's "Mr.Blue"
So much for my blue Christmas.


Yesterday... I just slept the whole day away, not wanting to remember anything.
Too tired or too sleepy because of the eve's red wine...
But still the reason for sleeping this much was to hopefully dream of you on my sleep.



I kept my phone near to my ear, wishing some call would wake me up...
None....

I woke up at past five in the afternoon... reading 26 messages,
Yeah.. Christmas Greetings... but none of them soothe my longings... none.


It's so hurting to expect a call from someone,
And it's more hurting when the call didn't came...
None....

Went down to have a cup of coffee, greet the kids , play with them for a while.
Ate my mom's spag--- bread....
Sleep some more.

Woke up at 4 A.M.
Work again.

Arrived at 6:31 A.M.
Yehey!!!! I'm not Late!!!!

work-work-work-
But still hoping for that call....
Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting still...
Still...


None.




~Pathetique